I am ALIVE!!

Well, surgery is over and I'm so happy to be alive and well!! No cancer was detected in my lymph node but I'm still not out of the woods! I can't begin to tell you how good I feel about my decision. I felt so scared and unsure about everything. It truly, truly is the best thing I could have done for myself and my family. Please keep praying xoxo!

Denise!

Surgery Day

Today is the day. It's about 6:20am. I'm so so scared and sad that my body will never be the same. Never. Ugh.....why does it bother me so much???? I should be happy to have FOOBS?!?! But, I'm not. I feel like I will always be uncomfortable. Something foreign? Ewwww! Oh well, I know this has to be done. My life is more important! I will try to embrace my new FOOBS!

X-rated!

Ok, We have made the decision to document my entire journey of a Bilateral Mastectomy with Reconstruction (with pictures)!! You will witness it from beginning to end. So THIS IS A WARNING for all!!!

In no way shape or form would I ever post pics of my boobs!!! But, I do not feel like these are mine! I feel they are not god given at all. The decision was easy! They are not mine and I want to help anyone going through my same journey to see what it's like. Good, bad and ugly! My husband is so great and this was definitely his decision as well!!

Let's be real....hey, I would want to see!

Denise xoxo

1 day....

1 day till my surgery. How am I feeling??? Sad, nervous, scared, anxious and excited. Are all of those emotions possible? I don't know but, that's how I feel. I'm feeling good about all the support that has been shown to me over the last few weeks. It's nice to have such good people in my life. But, 1 question keeps coming up. "how does your husband feel about this"? I guess fine? My husband is super supportive and we are completely open and honest about everything and never once has he said one bad thing about me losing my breast and nipples. The whole ordeal of cancer and my life being in jeopardy it was an easy decision for me/us! He will love my new FOOBS because he love me.
Anyways, 1 day.....1 long day....

Update!

Sorry for not keeping everyone up to date on the latest with my "boobs"
Well, I decided to have a bilateral mastectomy with reconstruction! This Thursday the 29th is the big day. If you have read my other entries you would get why I want this....I don't really want to go deep into it right now.
I have a busy 3 days. I have been really emotional and I have so much on my mind.....so much!
I absolutely love love MY GOD GIVEN BOOBS!!! Funny...I have had 4 kids and these girls have always been perky and full of wow ness !! Lol!!! Yes, they are my wow factor! (At least that's what my husband said the 1st time he saw me naked!!) hahahaha!
But, really, I love them and I am really sad to see them go!! But, I'm happy to prolong and save my life! Here's to my new "Foobs" (fake boobs - ha!)