Wow! It's been a while...a long while! Since my last rant I am much more calmer. In the sense that I do have a lot of support! It was just people and things getting to me and that's how it came out.
Since my last post Jackson has gotten diagnosed to be on the Autism Spectrum. I wasn't surprised and I wasn't sad. I feel now that he is like any other kid. Having 4 kids I have found that every one has different needs and different obstacles...challenges. His are not really that much different from that of let's say a "normal" child. What is normal anyways??? I have a stubborn, spunky, always sassy 4yr old...is that normal? I have a child who obsesses and screams when approached....is that normal? I have a quiet child...hmmm, normal??? I have an independent child...is that normal? What really is? Jacks to me is pretty unique....he is our puzzle pie e.
Jacks words:
Hi
Bye bye
No
Yes
Yay
Please
Jacks signing words:
Help
Please
More
All done
Yay
Thank you
Bye bye
Hi
And working on his name....he will sign a j by his heart because his heart is so sweet and kind.
Jacks is beating autism everyday and I'm so proud to call him mine.
Showing posts with label My Life. Show all posts
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Sunday, December 30, 2012
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
When It Rains It Pours
Lots of stuff has been going on with my family......where do I start??? I feel like 2012 has been the greatest yet hardest year of my life!!!
1. Janae went to a concert at The Grove and fell. She was rushed to UCI where they did a CT of her back and everything was fine EXCEPT for a 2cm nodule on her Thyroid! WHAT! So I made an appt to see a Endocrinologist. He did 6 biopsies and they came back fine. She may need surgery to remove it still....we still have to go back.
2. While my husband was on vacation I made him an appt with our PCP and he had a physical.....we ultimately found out he has high cholesterol, Arthritis in his knees, and skin cancer. He's amess but I hope to get lots of it resolved and his health back on check. We go today to see a dermatologist to check the rest of his moles and we go see a reconstructive surgeon for the cancer on his ear. (hes seeing the same Dr who did my breast Reconstruction)
3. We were just told Jackson...my 2yr old may have Autism. I'm completely devastated over it and I'm in a panic to get him the help he needs. This will potentially turn our lives upside down. I just hope I do everything right by him. Now I'm paranoid that Jersey is showing signs of Autism....I hope not..I hope it's just me being crazy. Lets pray.
So I have hired a family friend to be a part-time Nanny for us. Since I don't have my parents I need the extra help. I'm really excited to get help with the kids so I can get stuff done! It's much needed! I hope she loves my kids and they don't drive her crazy....lol
I'll have updates on it all...so keep an eye out on my BLOG!
Denise xoxo
1. Janae went to a concert at The Grove and fell. She was rushed to UCI where they did a CT of her back and everything was fine EXCEPT for a 2cm nodule on her Thyroid! WHAT! So I made an appt to see a Endocrinologist. He did 6 biopsies and they came back fine. She may need surgery to remove it still....we still have to go back.
2. While my husband was on vacation I made him an appt with our PCP and he had a physical.....we ultimately found out he has high cholesterol, Arthritis in his knees, and skin cancer. He's amess but I hope to get lots of it resolved and his health back on check. We go today to see a dermatologist to check the rest of his moles and we go see a reconstructive surgeon for the cancer on his ear. (hes seeing the same Dr who did my breast Reconstruction)
3. We were just told Jackson...my 2yr old may have Autism. I'm completely devastated over it and I'm in a panic to get him the help he needs. This will potentially turn our lives upside down. I just hope I do everything right by him. Now I'm paranoid that Jersey is showing signs of Autism....I hope not..I hope it's just me being crazy. Lets pray.
So I have hired a family friend to be a part-time Nanny for us. Since I don't have my parents I need the extra help. I'm really excited to get help with the kids so I can get stuff done! It's much needed! I hope she loves my kids and they don't drive her crazy....lol
I'll have updates on it all...so keep an eye out on my BLOG!
Denise xoxo
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Exchange Surgery
Sorry I haven't been more on top of my post but lots has been going on! For now I'm just blogging about my exchange surgery!
On the days leading up to the "big" day I felt super excited and anxious. I wasn't sure what to expect. My doc said this surgery would be a lot easier than the 1st (which wasn't that bad) so that put me at ease..... I had my pre op on the 6th and surgery was scheduled for August 9th! I met with the PA and we went over size, shape...etc. I explained to her that I wanted fullness. That was it. I was happy with size and maybe a D would be good instead of the DD's the expander's were. She agreed and said they would most likely be around 600-650cc's. I was happy with that!
Surgery Day!
The day was here...the end of all this. My final phase. So surgery was scheduled for 1:30pm which meant I needed to check into the hospital at 11:30am. I get there, register and then wait for a nurse to call me back to get me ready for surgery. The nurse comes out; calls my name and tells my husband to wait here until they have me situated. Then he can come back. We kiss and I'm off! As we walk through the doors she says that Dr C. is running ahead of schedule and I will be going in as soon as they prep me. So....things went FAST!!! That kinda made me nervous.....I really didn't like being rushed but, I didn't complain....I was too nervous...lol! Anyways, they get the IV in and Dr C. comes in to mark me .....Then...I see my wonderful husbands face and I feel a sense of calmness.....Just seeing him made me realize....this is why I am here...to live! For him and my kids. Dr C. leaves and the Dr who will put me under comes in to ask a few questions. Then gives me my IV cocktail! Yup, now I feel sooooo goooood! And as fast as that I'm off the the operating room where I get some oxygen and that's all I really remember.....hahahaha! The next thing I know is I'm in recovery. I had slight pain on my sides but that was all. I tell him I have some pinching so he gives me a shot of narcotic...yuck!!!!! I HATE pain meds!!!!! About an hour later we are released!!! I get home around 5:30pm and lay down....I feel great only I'm super nauseous from all the medications. I have no pain, no discomfort and full range of motion (I was shocked)! My aunt came to visit and I was really nauseous still so I wasn't a great host.... I tried to sleep the meds off the rest of that evening.
The next day.....Day 1
I woke up at 5am! Feeling really good. Still no pain, no discomfort and full range of motion (FYI- till this day... I have never had pain, discomfort and was able to move my arms like before surgery ) I ate, walked around and even held my baby. This was really an easy surgery. I still didn't know what he did and how much was in. I was bandaged up so I couldn't see anything!!! but, I was driving by Saturday!
Post op!!!!! Reveal Day!!!!
I'm so anxious...I can hardly contain myself....I mean.... I felt like puking, I was excited...you get the picture hahaha. I went through all this and its almost over!!! The Dr's PA walks in and examines me....takes off the bandages and I get a peek at the FOOBS!!! WOW! So high and round! I love them....Still not settled completely but boy do they look goooooood! I ask...."Sooooo, whats the final number" 700cc's!!! Wow, really!! So I have High profile 700cc Silicone Implants. Nice!
Today; 12 days post exchange surgery and 3mo since my Bilateral Mastectomy.....
I feel great! Like I never had anything done! I went bathing suite shopping today and love my body! It's perfect! It's like having a built in push up bra! Its so amazing!!! I love them! It was a LONG process and my emotions have been pushed to the limit....but, I'd do it all over again. This saved my life. No question. Through this whole process it's made me think.....how did my mom do it???? She was really soooo strong and it must have been so hard for her. We were young and I'm sure she wanted to live. I have the chance now to live a long life due to amazing Dr's and medical breakthroughs.....My life will be long and full of joy. I promise to enjoy every minute of it....We have woman fighting the battle everyday. Lots are still loosing their lives and leaving behind families. It's devastating. It devastated my family tremendously. I can't express how blessed I am.....I can't even describe how I feel. I'm grateful.....extremely grateful.
Denise xoxo!
On the days leading up to the "big" day I felt super excited and anxious. I wasn't sure what to expect. My doc said this surgery would be a lot easier than the 1st (which wasn't that bad) so that put me at ease..... I had my pre op on the 6th and surgery was scheduled for August 9th! I met with the PA and we went over size, shape...etc. I explained to her that I wanted fullness. That was it. I was happy with size and maybe a D would be good instead of the DD's the expander's were. She agreed and said they would most likely be around 600-650cc's. I was happy with that!
Surgery Day!
The day was here...the end of all this. My final phase. So surgery was scheduled for 1:30pm which meant I needed to check into the hospital at 11:30am. I get there, register and then wait for a nurse to call me back to get me ready for surgery. The nurse comes out; calls my name and tells my husband to wait here until they have me situated. Then he can come back. We kiss and I'm off! As we walk through the doors she says that Dr C. is running ahead of schedule and I will be going in as soon as they prep me. So....things went FAST!!! That kinda made me nervous.....I really didn't like being rushed but, I didn't complain....I was too nervous...lol! Anyways, they get the IV in and Dr C. comes in to mark me .....Then...I see my wonderful husbands face and I feel a sense of calmness.....Just seeing him made me realize....this is why I am here...to live! For him and my kids. Dr C. leaves and the Dr who will put me under comes in to ask a few questions. Then gives me my IV cocktail! Yup, now I feel sooooo goooood! And as fast as that I'm off the the operating room where I get some oxygen and that's all I really remember.....hahahaha! The next thing I know is I'm in recovery. I had slight pain on my sides but that was all. I tell him I have some pinching so he gives me a shot of narcotic...yuck!!!!! I HATE pain meds!!!!! About an hour later we are released!!! I get home around 5:30pm and lay down....I feel great only I'm super nauseous from all the medications. I have no pain, no discomfort and full range of motion (I was shocked)! My aunt came to visit and I was really nauseous still so I wasn't a great host.... I tried to sleep the meds off the rest of that evening.
The next day.....Day 1
I woke up at 5am! Feeling really good. Still no pain, no discomfort and full range of motion (FYI- till this day... I have never had pain, discomfort and was able to move my arms like before surgery ) I ate, walked around and even held my baby. This was really an easy surgery. I still didn't know what he did and how much was in. I was bandaged up so I couldn't see anything!!! but, I was driving by Saturday!
Post op!!!!! Reveal Day!!!!
I'm so anxious...I can hardly contain myself....I mean.... I felt like puking, I was excited...you get the picture hahaha. I went through all this and its almost over!!! The Dr's PA walks in and examines me....takes off the bandages and I get a peek at the FOOBS!!! WOW! So high and round! I love them....Still not settled completely but boy do they look goooooood! I ask...."Sooooo, whats the final number" 700cc's!!! Wow, really!! So I have High profile 700cc Silicone Implants. Nice!
Today; 12 days post exchange surgery and 3mo since my Bilateral Mastectomy.....
I feel great! Like I never had anything done! I went bathing suite shopping today and love my body! It's perfect! It's like having a built in push up bra! Its so amazing!!! I love them! It was a LONG process and my emotions have been pushed to the limit....but, I'd do it all over again. This saved my life. No question. Through this whole process it's made me think.....how did my mom do it???? She was really soooo strong and it must have been so hard for her. We were young and I'm sure she wanted to live. I have the chance now to live a long life due to amazing Dr's and medical breakthroughs.....My life will be long and full of joy. I promise to enjoy every minute of it....We have woman fighting the battle everyday. Lots are still loosing their lives and leaving behind families. It's devastating. It devastated my family tremendously. I can't express how blessed I am.....I can't even describe how I feel. I'm grateful.....extremely grateful.
Denise xoxo!
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Sunday!
Today I went to church with 2 of my 4 kids. It went really well! I was excited to see all my friends and it felt good to get out of the house and do my normal things!!! I love seeing everyone's smiles ....especially all the babies...who are btw getting sooo big! It was a really great day! I do get a little tired and still need to rest. My body is just not in sync with my mind right now...it's a little frustrating but, I know it will also get there! My dr said its normal to feel tired...most people do for a while. I guess because I don't sleep very well still. But...I must say...my nights have gotten much much better! I just can't wait to sleep on my tummy!!! Now that would be awesome!!!!!!
But, I was so happy to attend Church! Pain free and healthy! I'm almost done with all this and this journey has been long....from my mothers 12yr battle with Breast Cancer and also my grandmothers fight with breast cancer. To me loosing them both to it and now my fight to live...I'm glad to cut my chances and hopefully never put my family through it! I feel I'm wining the battle everyday! I will get to see things the 2 most important woman in my life never did! This is an honor and I plan to enjoy every part of it! Till God calls me! I will embrace this life he has set for me...as best I can!
Denise xoxo!
But, I was so happy to attend Church! Pain free and healthy! I'm almost done with all this and this journey has been long....from my mothers 12yr battle with Breast Cancer and also my grandmothers fight with breast cancer. To me loosing them both to it and now my fight to live...I'm glad to cut my chances and hopefully never put my family through it! I feel I'm wining the battle everyday! I will get to see things the 2 most important woman in my life never did! This is an honor and I plan to enjoy every part of it! Till God calls me! I will embrace this life he has set for me...as best I can!
Denise xoxo!
Monday, April 30, 2012
No pain!
Well I'm not having anymore pain! I had a fill on Wed which left me a little sore for a few hours but that's about it!!! I'm over the moon excited!!! My dr said to still take it easy and ease into things because I can mess up placement.
I can hold my baby...ahhh, that makes me so happy! I can hug my babies....it hurt so bad I couldn't even do that! I'm excited for more fills! I'm not afraid!!! Bring them on!!
My husband took some great pics of me and my 480cc FOOBS!
I can hold my baby...ahhh, that makes me so happy! I can hug my babies....it hurt so bad I couldn't even do that! I'm excited for more fills! I'm not afraid!!! Bring them on!!
My husband took some great pics of me and my 480cc FOOBS!
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Feeling much better! Time to do stuff!
I am feeling much much better today! Yesterday my husband took the day off! I felt no stress and was so so happy to have him here! I absolutely love this man....he makes me feel ahhhhmazing! I got to rest and not worry about a thing!
The only thing I will complain about is.....I put a t-shirt on and I looked ridiculously flat! Remember how I said 1-2 more fills....I'm taking that back. I may do 4-6 more fills. My body needs bigger FOOBS! My husband says I don't need anymore but I do! I definitely do! So more pain I guess too! Ugh!
I really want to try to do as much as I can before wed (the next fill). Maybe Dland tonight....we have a fair coming up! And Dland some more ;)!
Denise xoxo
The only thing I will complain about is.....I put a t-shirt on and I looked ridiculously flat! Remember how I said 1-2 more fills....I'm taking that back. I may do 4-6 more fills. My body needs bigger FOOBS! My husband says I don't need anymore but I do! I definitely do! So more pain I guess too! Ugh!
I really want to try to do as much as I can before wed (the next fill). Maybe Dland tonight....we have a fair coming up! And Dland some more ;)!
Denise xoxo
Saturday, April 14, 2012
Cleavage!!!
Since my fill last wed I have been pretty sore! Today I am feeling much better! The Mr and I are even going on a date tonight! I'm actually feeling a lil sexy ;) They are super high right now but my plastic surgeon says they will drop a little as time goes by. But, he also pointed out that my natural breast sat pretty high so its just my genes! Thanks mom and dad! Ha!
Here's a pic of my cleavage! I will post more topless pics soon ;) I'm super happy with them! My body looks great with smaller FOOBS! I have a figure!!!!
Here's a pic of my cleavage! I will post more topless pics soon ;) I'm super happy with them! My body looks great with smaller FOOBS! I have a figure!!!!
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Ooooh, fill me up please
So yesterday was my first fill and I forgot my camera!! Sorry no pics! Anyways, it was super painless. I thought I was gonna fill the fill lol! But, I didn't. He also checked my drains which like I said before were draining a lot still so of course they were left in :( When I got home I felt good.....ha!
I went to bed with my husband by my side. At 1am I woke up to him on top of my left side! I was in so much pain! I thought my drains came out! I was like...wth is going on! I was all sweaty...from him! Ugh! Since then I've been in pain. My chest muscles hurt so bad I can barely move. Wow! My FOOBS are so high! I'm hoping with more fills they come down! I didn't feel it yesterday but it just kicked in! Wow! No pain no gain I guess! And no bras....ha! So I'm assuming every fill will make me sore until my muscle relaxes. Great. Great. 6-7 more weeks of this....yay :-/
So here are some pics of my expanders. They are not natural at all!!! The grey thing on them that is what my plastic surgeon scans for with a magnet. That is where he fills me up!!!! Chowwww!
Denise xoxo
I went to bed with my husband by my side. At 1am I woke up to him on top of my left side! I was in so much pain! I thought my drains came out! I was like...wth is going on! I was all sweaty...from him! Ugh! Since then I've been in pain. My chest muscles hurt so bad I can barely move. Wow! My FOOBS are so high! I'm hoping with more fills they come down! I didn't feel it yesterday but it just kicked in! Wow! No pain no gain I guess! And no bras....ha! So I'm assuming every fill will make me sore until my muscle relaxes. Great. Great. 6-7 more weeks of this....yay :-/
So here are some pics of my expanders. They are not natural at all!!! The grey thing on them that is what my plastic surgeon scans for with a magnet. That is where he fills me up!!!! Chowwww!
Denise xoxo
Friday, March 30, 2012
I am ALIVE!!
Well, surgery is over and I'm so happy to be alive and well!! No cancer was detected in my lymph node but I'm still not out of the woods! I can't begin to tell you how good I feel about my decision. I felt so scared and unsure about everything. It truly, truly is the best thing I could have done for myself and my family. Please keep praying xoxo!
Denise!
Denise!
Monday, March 26, 2012
Update!
Sorry for not keeping everyone up to date on the latest with my "boobs"
Well, I decided to have a bilateral mastectomy with reconstruction! This Thursday the 29th is the big day. If you have read my other entries you would get why I want this....I don't really want to go deep into it right now.
I have a busy 3 days. I have been really emotional and I have so much on my mind.....so much!
I absolutely love love MY GOD GIVEN BOOBS!!! Funny...I have had 4 kids and these girls have always been perky and full of wow ness !! Lol!!! Yes, they are my wow factor! (At least that's what my husband said the 1st time he saw me naked!!) hahahaha!
But, really, I love them and I am really sad to see them go!! But, I'm happy to prolong and save my life! Here's to my new "Foobs" (fake boobs - ha!)
Well, I decided to have a bilateral mastectomy with reconstruction! This Thursday the 29th is the big day. If you have read my other entries you would get why I want this....I don't really want to go deep into it right now.
I have a busy 3 days. I have been really emotional and I have so much on my mind.....so much!
I absolutely love love MY GOD GIVEN BOOBS!!! Funny...I have had 4 kids and these girls have always been perky and full of wow ness !! Lol!!! Yes, they are my wow factor! (At least that's what my husband said the 1st time he saw me naked!!) hahahaha!
But, really, I love them and I am really sad to see them go!! But, I'm happy to prolong and save my life! Here's to my new "Foobs" (fake boobs - ha!)
Sunday, February 12, 2012
It's been a while....
I haven't posted since Jan 16th...too too long! So much has been going on in my life...especially medically....
1st.- I went to have an MRI because that was the next step in this crazy process. Well, I freaked out and lasted about 5min in that horrible little tube. I went back to see my Surgeon and she prescibed me some Xanax and I was to now have my MRI done at St. Joseph's. So last Wed I did just that. My wonderful husband took off work and drove me to the outpatient pavilion. We left at about 9am for my 11:15 appt. He took me to breakfast and we chatted for a while because we had a lot of time to kill. It was so nice to be able to eat in peace...lol! I enjoyed it very much! At about 10:30 I took my so called "happy pill" Yeah...I wasn't so happy and I was still super nervous! But, I told myself I had to do it...for me and for my family...I have to know if it's cancer. I just kept thinking of my husband...he always gives me strength! I thought about my kids....just had to really focus to stay calm and not panic. I did it! It's done.....
2nd- My Surgeons office called and wanted to see me Friday. So I was scheduled for 2pm. Up until this point I was convinced it wasn't cancer....not sure what it is but, that was my feeling....up until then. I had been planning a BIG 2nd birthday party for my 3rd child and Friday was a super busy day. I completely forgot about my appointment. i called the office at 2:05 and proceeded to tell the receptionist I couldn't make it. She said I needed to come in and anytime before 5 was fine just as long as I came....hmmm, odd...ok, I'll be there. So I get there....not having to wait too long my Dr comes in and we laugh and she asked how I was...blah blah blah.. She then starts to get very serious and proceeds to say...well, we need to discuss quite a few things.....(I'm thinking hmmm, ok) She proceeds and says...(Gonna get a little graphic) She draws on a white board my left breast. Side view and frontal view. She says I have a 2cm mass behind my left nipple (that was my original complaint) I have a 3cm mass at 3:30 and enlarged lymph nodes. Yeah, that's a lot. I wasn't expecting that....I don't think she was either. I could see the concern on her face and I knew it wasn't great news..in fact it was pretty bad. FYI- My rt breast is perfect...lol! We discussed a plan. So she decided to biopsy 2 of the masses and if they are Cancerous we will not biopsy the 3rd. If they are cancer I decided I will have a Bilateral Mastectomy with reconstruction. Which by the way....I'm gonna still do even if it's not Cancer. I thought with my strong family history and the fact that I lost my mother so young it is the best thing for me and my family. My family needs me and I need to be around for a long time.
I will have my biopsy's next week and will keep everyone up to date ;)
Take care,
Denise xoxo!
1st.- I went to have an MRI because that was the next step in this crazy process. Well, I freaked out and lasted about 5min in that horrible little tube. I went back to see my Surgeon and she prescibed me some Xanax and I was to now have my MRI done at St. Joseph's. So last Wed I did just that. My wonderful husband took off work and drove me to the outpatient pavilion. We left at about 9am for my 11:15 appt. He took me to breakfast and we chatted for a while because we had a lot of time to kill. It was so nice to be able to eat in peace...lol! I enjoyed it very much! At about 10:30 I took my so called "happy pill" Yeah...I wasn't so happy and I was still super nervous! But, I told myself I had to do it...for me and for my family...I have to know if it's cancer. I just kept thinking of my husband...he always gives me strength! I thought about my kids....just had to really focus to stay calm and not panic. I did it! It's done.....
2nd- My Surgeons office called and wanted to see me Friday. So I was scheduled for 2pm. Up until this point I was convinced it wasn't cancer....not sure what it is but, that was my feeling....up until then. I had been planning a BIG 2nd birthday party for my 3rd child and Friday was a super busy day. I completely forgot about my appointment. i called the office at 2:05 and proceeded to tell the receptionist I couldn't make it. She said I needed to come in and anytime before 5 was fine just as long as I came....hmmm, odd...ok, I'll be there. So I get there....not having to wait too long my Dr comes in and we laugh and she asked how I was...blah blah blah.. She then starts to get very serious and proceeds to say...well, we need to discuss quite a few things.....(I'm thinking hmmm, ok) She proceeds and says...(Gonna get a little graphic) She draws on a white board my left breast. Side view and frontal view. She says I have a 2cm mass behind my left nipple (that was my original complaint) I have a 3cm mass at 3:30 and enlarged lymph nodes. Yeah, that's a lot. I wasn't expecting that....I don't think she was either. I could see the concern on her face and I knew it wasn't great news..in fact it was pretty bad. FYI- My rt breast is perfect...lol! We discussed a plan. So she decided to biopsy 2 of the masses and if they are Cancerous we will not biopsy the 3rd. If they are cancer I decided I will have a Bilateral Mastectomy with reconstruction. Which by the way....I'm gonna still do even if it's not Cancer. I thought with my strong family history and the fact that I lost my mother so young it is the best thing for me and my family. My family needs me and I need to be around for a long time.
I will have my biopsy's next week and will keep everyone up to date ;)
Take care,
Denise xoxo!
Monday, January 16, 2012
The Musical Wicked!
For Christmas my wonderful sister in law got my husband and I Wicked tickets and also offered to babysit our 4 kids! So of course leading up to the day we were just so excited and could not wait. My husband made reservations at the Stinking Rose in Beverly Hills. I was leary about trying a new restaurant...especially Italian. But, I must say it was amazing and so worth it.
So we get to the restaurant where we were seated immediately. They are BIG on garlic and I was also afraid about being overwhelmed with it but, I was pleasantly surprised that I didn't even know garlic was basically in everything!!! Ha! I had the Filet Mignon which was to die for...it came with spinach and garlic mashed potatoes. Yup...amazing. It was probably the best I have ever had!!!!!! Dale had an asparagus pasta....of course with garlic..hahaha! Dinner was quiet and peaceful. Spending time with my husband is great...I really cherish these moments.
We left the restaurant to immediately head over to the Pantages theater where we saw Wicked for the 1st time! I love it! Glinda the good witch was hilarious!!!! The music was breathtaking and I laughed and cried. It was really GREAT! I want to take my oldest son and daughter to see it! They would absolutely LOVE IT!!!
The whole night was great! Thank you Delarie...we truly had an amazing night!!
Denise xoxo!
So we get to the restaurant where we were seated immediately. They are BIG on garlic and I was also afraid about being overwhelmed with it but, I was pleasantly surprised that I didn't even know garlic was basically in everything!!! Ha! I had the Filet Mignon which was to die for...it came with spinach and garlic mashed potatoes. Yup...amazing. It was probably the best I have ever had!!!!!! Dale had an asparagus pasta....of course with garlic..hahaha! Dinner was quiet and peaceful. Spending time with my husband is great...I really cherish these moments.
We left the restaurant to immediately head over to the Pantages theater where we saw Wicked for the 1st time! I love it! Glinda the good witch was hilarious!!!! The music was breathtaking and I laughed and cried. It was really GREAT! I want to take my oldest son and daughter to see it! They would absolutely LOVE IT!!!
The whole night was great! Thank you Delarie...we truly had an amazing night!!
Denise xoxo!
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Mammogram & Ultrasound
So today was the big day. I went in for my Mammogram and Ultrasound this morning.
I drive up to this big building and I pull into the parking structure where I had to drive all the way up to the top to park. As soon as I walk into the Breast Care Center I have this feeling come over me. It's kinda hard to explain. I felt sadness for myself and a little scared. So as I walk in to see a lot of older woman who are bald from Chemo and a lot of older woman who are their for testing as well. I take the elevator with other woman up to the 2nd floor where I was going to have my testing done. I walk into the office and immediately everyone looks at me...everyone. I needed a sign that had said "yes, I'm young and, yes I'm having a Mammo"! or something like that. Anyways, It was weird...and uncomfortable. The whole thing is just weird.
So they call me back and tell me I need to undress...I wore a strapless dress so I could just take my bra off....My idea was genius! So then I wait...with other half naked woman...in a room. Once again...weird. They finally call my name where she has tons of questions for me and I in turn have tons of questions for her....of course hers were by far more important than mine..ha! The whole thing was over in about 10mins. AND...PAINLESS!!! YES!
Then she has me sit...again....Another tech calls me into the Ultrasound room where she does her test.
So in the end they did find the lump I was complaining about and the Pathologist is recommending I see a Surgeon. I'm worried. But, I know I will be ok..whatever the outcome is I'm fine with. I'm actually not nervous if I do have cancer. It's my path. I have a very supportive family and I know we will all be fine ;)
Denise xoxo!
I drive up to this big building and I pull into the parking structure where I had to drive all the way up to the top to park. As soon as I walk into the Breast Care Center I have this feeling come over me. It's kinda hard to explain. I felt sadness for myself and a little scared. So as I walk in to see a lot of older woman who are bald from Chemo and a lot of older woman who are their for testing as well. I take the elevator with other woman up to the 2nd floor where I was going to have my testing done. I walk into the office and immediately everyone looks at me...everyone. I needed a sign that had said "yes, I'm young and, yes I'm having a Mammo"! or something like that. Anyways, It was weird...and uncomfortable. The whole thing is just weird.
So they call me back and tell me I need to undress...I wore a strapless dress so I could just take my bra off....My idea was genius! So then I wait...with other half naked woman...in a room. Once again...weird. They finally call my name where she has tons of questions for me and I in turn have tons of questions for her....of course hers were by far more important than mine..ha! The whole thing was over in about 10mins. AND...PAINLESS!!! YES!
Then she has me sit...again....Another tech calls me into the Ultrasound room where she does her test.
So in the end they did find the lump I was complaining about and the Pathologist is recommending I see a Surgeon. I'm worried. But, I know I will be ok..whatever the outcome is I'm fine with. I'm actually not nervous if I do have cancer. It's my path. I have a very supportive family and I know we will all be fine ;)
Denise xoxo!
Monday, January 9, 2012
Urgent??
Well, I got a call from my Dr's office regarding my referral for the Mammogram and ultrasound. I guess my Dr flagged it as URGENT! Wow, as if I wasn't worried enough. The nurse called me 3 times saying how important it was that she speak to me TODAY! So it seems that the Breast Center is fitting me in because of the urgency of the matter. Urgency? It's really an urgency??? OK, I guess with my history....I can see why. It's just scary to hear the word "urgent".
I go and check in at the Breast Center @ 9:45am to have all the testing done. Then from there I guess they will instruct me and I'm sure it's a waiting game. Wish me luck!
Denise xoxo!
I go and check in at the Breast Center @ 9:45am to have all the testing done. Then from there I guess they will instruct me and I'm sure it's a waiting game. Wish me luck!
Denise xoxo!
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Homemade Tortaillas
Recipe: Homemade Flour Tortillas
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Ingredients
- 2-1/2 cups All-purpose Flour
- 2-1/2 teaspoons Baking Powder
- 1 teaspoon Kosher Salt
- 1/2 cup Lard Or Vegetable Shortening
- 2 Tablespoons (additional) Lard Or Vegetable Shortening
- 1 cup Hot Water
Preparation Instructions
Combine flour, baking powder and salt in a large wooden bowl. Stir together.
Add spoonfuls of lard or shortening (use 1/2 cup PLUS 2 tablespoons), then use a pastry cutter to combine the ingredients. Cut mixture until it resembles coarse crumbs.
Slowly pour in hot water, stirring to bring mixture together. Lightly knead dough 30 to 40 times, or until it becomes a cohesive ball of dough and is less sticky. Cover with a tea towel and allow dough to rest for at least an hour.
Roll into ping pong size balls, place on a tray, cover with a tea towel, and allow to rest for another 20 to 30 minutes.
When you're ready to make the tortillas, head a dark or cast iron griddle to medium/medium-high heat. One by one, roll out balls of dough until very, very thin. Throw tortillas (one by one) onto the griddle. Cook on each side for 20 to 30 seconds, removing while tortillas are still soft but slightly brown in spots. Remove and stack tortillas, and cover with a towel to keep warm. Serve immediately or allow to cool before storing tortillas in a container. To warm, nuke tortillas in the microwave, or wrap in foil and warm in the oven.
Helpful tips:
* Make sure the water you pour in is very warm.
* Allow the dough to rest, both after kneading and after forming into balls.
* Roll out very thin.
* Get the heat right on your stove: Too hot, and the tortilla will burn in spots. Not hot enough, and the tortilla will begin to crisp before you can get it to brown. I get my stove between medium and medium high heat; that seems to do the trick.
* Use a dark griddle or cast iron skillet to brown the tortillas.
* Cook just long enough to lightly brown the tortilla in spots; don't cook too long or tortillas will crisp. You want them to be soft and pliable when you serve them.
* Finally: Have fun! And enjoy them. They're absolutely scrumptious
I made these and my family loved them!!!
Add spoonfuls of lard or shortening (use 1/2 cup PLUS 2 tablespoons), then use a pastry cutter to combine the ingredients. Cut mixture until it resembles coarse crumbs.
Slowly pour in hot water, stirring to bring mixture together. Lightly knead dough 30 to 40 times, or until it becomes a cohesive ball of dough and is less sticky. Cover with a tea towel and allow dough to rest for at least an hour.
Roll into ping pong size balls, place on a tray, cover with a tea towel, and allow to rest for another 20 to 30 minutes.
When you're ready to make the tortillas, head a dark or cast iron griddle to medium/medium-high heat. One by one, roll out balls of dough until very, very thin. Throw tortillas (one by one) onto the griddle. Cook on each side for 20 to 30 seconds, removing while tortillas are still soft but slightly brown in spots. Remove and stack tortillas, and cover with a towel to keep warm. Serve immediately or allow to cool before storing tortillas in a container. To warm, nuke tortillas in the microwave, or wrap in foil and warm in the oven.
Helpful tips:
* Make sure the water you pour in is very warm.
* Allow the dough to rest, both after kneading and after forming into balls.
* Roll out very thin.
* Get the heat right on your stove: Too hot, and the tortilla will burn in spots. Not hot enough, and the tortilla will begin to crisp before you can get it to brown. I get my stove between medium and medium high heat; that seems to do the trick.
* Use a dark griddle or cast iron skillet to brown the tortillas.
* Cook just long enough to lightly brown the tortilla in spots; don't cook too long or tortillas will crisp. You want them to be soft and pliable when you serve them.
* Finally: Have fun! And enjoy them. They're absolutely scrumptious
I made these and my family loved them!!!
Friday, January 6, 2012
Not too worried...ok, maybe a little.
About a month ago I found a lump on my left breast and I didn't think too much of it at the time. It was very tender and hurt. I thought it would go away.....it didn't. But, it no longer hurts. Well, I made an appt and went this morning to get it checked out and make sure everything is O.K.
When my mother was 31 she got breast cancer for the 1st time. I was very, very young. My mom had it in 14 lymph nodes and had a mastectomy. It was very bad. She still never showed anyone how much pain she was in. I do remember helping her after her surgery. She went through chemo and was ok for about 8 yrs. She lost the long and painful battle from Breast Cancer at the age of 42. I was 16. I was home schooled during my Sophomore year to help her and take care of her. I was at her bedside everyday...till the last day. My sister was 14 and a mess....understandably.
My grandmother (mom's mom) had Breast Cancer when I was 2yrs old. She was fine and led a pretty healthy life. She passed at age 82 of Pancreatic Cancer.
My grandfather (mom's dad) had cyst in his breast but never cancer. Yes, men get Breast Cancer too.
This whole experience is a little too close to comfort and I am a little worried. I guess because my daughter is the age I was when I lost her and how her loss has impacted my life...good and bad. Good....that I appreciate people for who they are and all of their flaws. I love life a whole lot more! I promised her I would go to school and make something of myself...which I did. Bad....well, the obvious..I miss her and want a mom...that would be nice. To see her smile and hear her contagious laugh. I would love for her to see her grandchildren. Meet my wonderful husband....I can go on and on and on...their is so much.
Well, we will see what happens. I went to the Dr this morning and she is sending me to the Breast center to have a mammogram. Kinda nervous but, anxious to get it done.
xoxo Denise
When my mother was 31 she got breast cancer for the 1st time. I was very, very young. My mom had it in 14 lymph nodes and had a mastectomy. It was very bad. She still never showed anyone how much pain she was in. I do remember helping her after her surgery. She went through chemo and was ok for about 8 yrs. She lost the long and painful battle from Breast Cancer at the age of 42. I was 16. I was home schooled during my Sophomore year to help her and take care of her. I was at her bedside everyday...till the last day. My sister was 14 and a mess....understandably.
My grandmother (mom's mom) had Breast Cancer when I was 2yrs old. She was fine and led a pretty healthy life. She passed at age 82 of Pancreatic Cancer.
My grandfather (mom's dad) had cyst in his breast but never cancer. Yes, men get Breast Cancer too.
This whole experience is a little too close to comfort and I am a little worried. I guess because my daughter is the age I was when I lost her and how her loss has impacted my life...good and bad. Good....that I appreciate people for who they are and all of their flaws. I love life a whole lot more! I promised her I would go to school and make something of myself...which I did. Bad....well, the obvious..I miss her and want a mom...that would be nice. To see her smile and hear her contagious laugh. I would love for her to see her grandchildren. Meet my wonderful husband....I can go on and on and on...their is so much.
Well, we will see what happens. I went to the Dr this morning and she is sending me to the Breast center to have a mammogram. Kinda nervous but, anxious to get it done.
xoxo Denise
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Fun Times!
Well ,Last night was Bunco Night with my Bunco Babes group! I was the host for this month and I prepared a veggie lasagna, salad, bbq hot links, and fruit. Yummy, it was delish! Well, we ate and talked so much we didn't even get to our Bunco game...ha ha ha!!
When I 1st agreed to do Bunco I had no idea what it was and I knew my church played Bunco so I assumed it was safe...ha ha. No, Its gambling! Ha ha! Since I'm Mormon gambling is a no no....but, I don't do it for the money or anything I really do it for fun and I get to spend time with new friends I have met through this group. I have won once but give it to my tithing....I guess that's how I justify it. I don't know if it's right or wrong but I feel pretty good about the decision I have made.
Well, today one of the ladies from my Bunco group came to my church's play date with her adorable kids. The Bunco group I feel is good for me and, now we get to share more than just that 1 night a month together. It's nice to meet new people and share and learn from other mommies. Its great actually! It's also really good for our kids! Fun times...fun times!
xoxo Denise
When I 1st agreed to do Bunco I had no idea what it was and I knew my church played Bunco so I assumed it was safe...ha ha. No, Its gambling! Ha ha! Since I'm Mormon gambling is a no no....but, I don't do it for the money or anything I really do it for fun and I get to spend time with new friends I have met through this group. I have won once but give it to my tithing....I guess that's how I justify it. I don't know if it's right or wrong but I feel pretty good about the decision I have made.
Well, today one of the ladies from my Bunco group came to my church's play date with her adorable kids. The Bunco group I feel is good for me and, now we get to share more than just that 1 night a month together. It's nice to meet new people and share and learn from other mommies. Its great actually! It's also really good for our kids! Fun times...fun times!
xoxo Denise
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Did someone say Big Boy Undies?!?!
Well, Jayden is officially potty trained...phew! Sooooo, Monday morning he woke up and like I do every morning I went to change his diaper. This is our conversation: Me- Jayden lets change your diaper. Jayden- No mommy I don't want to put a diaper on. Me- Do you want big boy undies? Jayden- Yes! It was really that simple...done. Potty trained! Yup.....
So that was Monday. On Tuesday we went to Disneyland with no diapers...yes, the very next day!!!! I went with lots of underwear and clothes just in case. But, to my surprise I didn't need them. Not 1 accident. Nope, not 1!!!! We are so proud of him!
YAY Jayden!!!!!
xoxo Denise!
So that was Monday. On Tuesday we went to Disneyland with no diapers...yes, the very next day!!!! I went with lots of underwear and clothes just in case. But, to my surprise I didn't need them. Not 1 accident. Nope, not 1!!!! We are so proud of him!
YAY Jayden!!!!!
xoxo Denise!
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Happy New Year!!
Happy Happy New Year!! 2011 was a really good year for me! Anything and everything good has happened to me in the last few years! 2011 was no exception to that. I had another baby which made a total of 4! She is such a joy and I couldn't imagine life without her!
As for my partner in life, Dale is an amazing father, husband and friend and I feel every year we become closer. Dale has been this amazing person in MY life and I knew from the moment I met him he would change my life. Since 2006 he has been consistent with who he is and what he's about. Not once has he ever treated me badly or made me feel inadequate. He's amazing and it feels really good (blushing) So, this past year has been ahhhhmazing to say the least. We have been married 3yrs and 2012 will bring our 4th yr wedding anniversary and hopefully another bun in the oven!!! I really feel like the luckiest girl in the world and I'm so glad our lives worked out they way they did. I'm glad I went through all the pain to get to him. I'd do it all over again...no question on that! It's la la la la LOVE!
And my kids! Awww, what can I say! They are amazing....precious....adorable.....cute...funny...I can go on and on..ha ha! They are my W O R L D!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so lucky that from day 1 I have got to spend every min with them as a stay at home mommy!! Janae is an amazing big sis...she is my Angel. They and I...we are so blessed to have her. I'm just glad God gave me these kids and I promise I will always do right by them.
My friends, family and Church!! They are great to us! Our friends are always there for us all! Its so nice to have people who support and love you...yup, best feeling in the world and I just want them to know how much I love them and appreciate all they do.
And our Church...wow, what can I say. I have been a member of the LDS Church since 2010. Best thing I have ever done for me, my kids and my relationships with people in general. I belong to the best Church...the real truth. They love us unconditionally and I admire each and every one of them. They teach us not to be judgemental of anyone else and to respect everyone. I try...I'm not perfect but, I try. I love our ward and God has really blessed my home with the Gospel and we try to live by his words. Not pretend or do it for show but really live it. Really embrace his commandments. It has been life changing and I thank my heavenly father everyday for the blessings he has bestowed on us all.
Well, goodbye 2011....it was a GREAT year! Lookout 2012! The Sutton Family has more GREAT memories to make!
Love you all and God Bless you all!
XOXO- Denise
As for my partner in life, Dale is an amazing father, husband and friend and I feel every year we become closer. Dale has been this amazing person in MY life and I knew from the moment I met him he would change my life. Since 2006 he has been consistent with who he is and what he's about. Not once has he ever treated me badly or made me feel inadequate. He's amazing and it feels really good (blushing) So, this past year has been ahhhhmazing to say the least. We have been married 3yrs and 2012 will bring our 4th yr wedding anniversary and hopefully another bun in the oven!!! I really feel like the luckiest girl in the world and I'm so glad our lives worked out they way they did. I'm glad I went through all the pain to get to him. I'd do it all over again...no question on that! It's la la la la LOVE!
And my kids! Awww, what can I say! They are amazing....precious....adorable.....cute...funny...I can go on and on..ha ha! They are my W O R L D!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so lucky that from day 1 I have got to spend every min with them as a stay at home mommy!! Janae is an amazing big sis...she is my Angel. They and I...we are so blessed to have her. I'm just glad God gave me these kids and I promise I will always do right by them.
My friends, family and Church!! They are great to us! Our friends are always there for us all! Its so nice to have people who support and love you...yup, best feeling in the world and I just want them to know how much I love them and appreciate all they do.
And our Church...wow, what can I say. I have been a member of the LDS Church since 2010. Best thing I have ever done for me, my kids and my relationships with people in general. I belong to the best Church...the real truth. They love us unconditionally and I admire each and every one of them. They teach us not to be judgemental of anyone else and to respect everyone. I try...I'm not perfect but, I try. I love our ward and God has really blessed my home with the Gospel and we try to live by his words. Not pretend or do it for show but really live it. Really embrace his commandments. It has been life changing and I thank my heavenly father everyday for the blessings he has bestowed on us all.
Well, goodbye 2011....it was a GREAT year! Lookout 2012! The Sutton Family has more GREAT memories to make!
Love you all and God Bless you all!
XOXO- Denise
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Jayden is going to Primary!!
Yay!! Jayden starts primary on Sunday! No more nursery....I'm not too sure how he will handle the change but I think he will be ok. change doesn't really bother him at all. He just jumps in and adapts to almost anything. He does have a problem will listening and following rules. He definitely likes to do what he wants. He is so lovable and almost always recognizes his wrong....so he is just a little defiant. Ugh...he's my challenge.....to say the least!! Non the less I'm super excited for this next chapter. A lot of the kids we have play dates with will also be going into primary and making that same transition as Jayden. Its so exciting!!
Tomorrow his Teacher- Sister Hill will be visiting our home to get to know him a little better....Now, this makes me more nervous than actually sending him to class. When Jayden is in his "element" or "his home" he tends to act out. I just hope he is calm and she can meet Jayden's genuine self....not the actor or the flamboyant Jayden but, the lovable, outgoing Jayden.
Crossing my Fingers!!!
Denise xoxo!
Tomorrow his Teacher- Sister Hill will be visiting our home to get to know him a little better....Now, this makes me more nervous than actually sending him to class. When Jayden is in his "element" or "his home" he tends to act out. I just hope he is calm and she can meet Jayden's genuine self....not the actor or the flamboyant Jayden but, the lovable, outgoing Jayden.
Crossing my Fingers!!!
Denise xoxo!
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