Today I am feeling really sad.....sad that I'm letting my life pass me by. Sad that my weight is completely out of control and I don't know how to get it under control. Sad that I don't have any really meaningful relationships with friends like I would like.
That's a lot of pity thoughts. I hate to to have these pity thoughts. Its definitely not me at all. I know I need to change things in my life I just don't know how. I have no family to lean on and no real best friend because I am so guarded. It's a sad place to be in and I feel I am the one controlling it.
On the other hand I have an amazing husband who is truly my best friend. I have 4 amazing children that bring such joy to my life. This weight thing is killing me. You must be asking yourself...then do something about it! Yeah...I ask myself that too. All the time.....I don't have the motivation.....I'm tired from being a mom and wife.....I really could use some me time. I have no energy and I know its partly because of my weight......ugh...I wish this was simpler.....but, its hard work. I just want to be free of this weight....free from this burden.
Denise
Rather than saying "Do something about it" I would say "Love yourself the way you are!" I can relate to the weight issue. I currently weight more than I have EVER. Do I want to get back into shape? Yes, of course. More important to me, though, is that I don't get into shape by hating myself and punishing myself. When I have the time and the energy, I will devote the appropriate amounts to this goal. However, I am busy being MY BEST ME in other ways right now. Hang in there. You are a BEAUTIFUL WOMAN. Love all of you, no matter the size! <3
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