Things lately have been so hard. I find myself missing my mom and grandma more and more. I hate feeling so alone....raising my kids with no real grandparents or an outlet for my kids....it's so hard to know they will never have that experience. I hate to feel sorry for myself. Its just so sad. Really sad that I can't just call my mom and tell her hey! Whatcha doing? Can the kids and I come by??? Or come visit me, I'm having a bad day...the kids are out of control. I guess that's why I decided to do this. I never want my kids to go through that. Never.
I kinda feel like this surgery brought up do many awful feelings...ugh! I hate this I hate feeling this way. It's been 16yrs. Well, it is what it is. I can't change anything. I guess I just have to deal with things as they happen.
It doesn't help that my husband and daughter are slobs and they are not keeping up the house like they should! Ugh...it drives me MAD!!!
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